What to do, what to do?

Normally at night, I know exactly what I want to do.

I usually want to write, even if I spend all day writing.

Sometimes I want to roleplay.

Sometimes I want to play a game.

Rarely, I want to watch something. This one is new. In the past, the guilt of not having finished my own book made me want to see other people's stories less and less. Now I'm starting to get interested, but I'm still discerning. More and more, I'm interested in anime, probably because I'm more likely to find fresh ideas there.

But since last night, I can't figure it out. Since reading about a senseless murder, one that could have been anyone, I've been unable to focus my mind.

I keep thinking about what would happen if that had been my wife. I keep worrying about what could happen to my trans son, who is just trying to be himself and not bother anyone.

Right now, I don't think I can write at night. But i have to do something to distract myself.